Note · September 2, 2026

Why I still run my own servers

Managed platforms are genuinely good now. I keep running my own anyway, and the reason isn't cost.

I run most of my own servers because apparently I don't have enough things that can break.

That's the joke. Here's the actual reason: I want to be able to open the machinery. When a deploy fails on a platform I don't control, I get a status page and a support form. When it fails on a box I set up, I get a log file and an afternoon. I'd rather have the afternoon.

I'm not making a general recommendation. For a lot of people — probably most people — a managed platform is the correct answer, and I'll happily put a client on one when it's the right call. The tradeoff I'm making is specific to me: I'd rather understand the whole path from idea to running process than save the hours.

The side effect is that when a client's site does something strange at 11 p.m., I usually already know which layer to suspect. That knowledge came from breaking my own things first, which is the only way I've ever reliably learned anything about a system.

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